Friday, 26 June 2009

done it!

i have a degree!!! a 'two-one' in Anthropology with Spanish from the University of Sussex.

yehhhhhhhhhhhhhh baaaaaaaaaby. very relieved and pleased and thankful. :-)

Monday, 22 June 2009

clouds

How often do we look up at the clouds? And appreciate their detail…
Countless hues and everchanging shapes and forms
Capture our imagination and allow us to dream.
When will you pause to look up at me?
When will you still your busy ways?
And let your breath be taken away by my mystery and beauty.
To see me in ways you’ve never seen me before.
Let me surprise you
.

And he saw a cloud the size of a man’s fist over the sea.
A dot on the horizon bursting with promise of a new season.
But he had to go and look for it seven times before he saw it.
Are you willing to keep on searching?
Will you look for me again and again and again?
Will you fix your eyes on my promises and dare to dream?

Clouds they bring the rain.
Yes, yes they bring the rain.
I will rain down on this dry and thirsty land
I will cause rivers to flow again
I will make new life grow
I will quench your thirst
I will wash away your hurt

You call out to me but when I come will you let yourself be drenched

or will you curse the clouds?
Will you tell me “that’s enough”, “too much”...
Will you put up your umbrellas and hide away?
Because I am not safe.
I am wild and I will shake things up.
You cannot remain unchanged when you surrender yourselves to me.
So will you take the risk?
Will you welcome the clouds and dance in the rain?

Thursday, 11 June 2009

hospitality, friends, west wittering

it's been a while. I keep having lots to say and not knowing where to start so not saying anything. So i thought i'd just start typing and see what happens. It seems to work when writing emails... they always end up being longer and more open than i might have intended. It's been just over a week since i finished university, although feels like longer. which surprises me a little, not sure why. I am still feeling pretty tired, although not exhausted like i was last week, when the smallest thing seemed like a huge effort, including just hanging out with friends. which is why i felt apprehensive about 7 girls coming with me to stay in my late grandparents' house in West Wittering. I love to have people over, I love to gather people together and I think hospitality is really important. but for some usually non existent reason i often get stressed about it, which i hate. i worry about... well i don't really know. and i know worrying don't get you nowhere... so basically just hoping its something i will 'grow out of'. Sometimes just need someone to tell me to chill!

so back to West Wittering, thanks to the prayers of some friends, and to the fact that the girls who came are actually all just amazing, we had a wonderful weekend! i think it was just what everyone needed. we chilled, laughed, cooked big meals, painted in the garden, ate chocolate cake amongst the roses, watched cheesy DVDs, played in the sand and swam in the sea. happy days. and i remembered why we are friends. which is always good...! shame on me for ever questionning it, i think the main reason was that over the last few months there's always been that academic stress hanging over us and conversations dominated by study, which i never particularly enjoyed talking about. so to be able to just enjoy each others company in one of the most beautiful spots in England was certainly a treat.

am continuing the trend of catching up with friends and chilling over the next week or two before i start full time work. Which i think i'll be ready for. after all if the current pace of life wasn't unusual it wouldn't be so special i guess.... although rest and people i hope will always be priorities in my life, whatever else i'm doing.

ahhh see, the words just spill out once i start typing. :-) till next time...